I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. A little past my fourth decade, maybe it’s time to start figuring it out.
During the latter half of 2017, I found myself losing my sense of identity little by little. For various reasons, I needed to drop hobbies and personal activities one by one. Then, a long illness precipitated my departure from my job. Thus, many defining elements of my life were gone.
Now I’m starting 2018 with a blank slate. I have the unique opportunity to decide what to do with myself. My health is on the upswing (though not yet 100%), so it’s time to start being productive. I’ve had successful careers in two different industries – neither of which I chose so much as fell into. Now I have the chance to make some choices. Do I go back to the corporate grind and a “responsible” job? Or do I try something different?
For now, I’m taking time to focus on creative passions which are at the heart of who I am. They have been stifled or pushed to the sidelines for too long. And, just maybe, I can figure out a way to have a practical life balance where I don’t have to sacrifice them so much again.
As a starting point, I’ve painted this sketchbook cover which began as blank white canvas much like my life’s blank slate. The images in the stained glass each represent a bit of me. The sketchbook will get me going on the upcoming journey. I’m not sure exactly where life will take me, but I’m looking forward to the adventure!