discovering myself

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.  A little past my fourth decade, maybe it’s time to start figuring it out.

During the latter half of 2017, I found myself losing my sense of identity little by little.  For various reasons, I needed to drop hobbies and personal activities one by one.  Then, a long illness precipitated my departure from my job.  Thus, many defining elements of my life were gone.

Now I’m starting 2018 with a blank slate.  I have the unique opportunity to decide what to do with myself.  My health is on the upswing (though not yet 100%), so it’s time to start being productive.  I’ve had successful careers in two different industries – neither of which I chose so much as fell into.  Now I have the chance to make some choices.  Do I go back to the corporate grind and a “responsible” job?  Or do I try something different?

For now, I’m taking time to focus on creative passions which are at the heart of who I am. They have been stifled or pushed to the sidelines for too long.  And, just maybe, I can figure out a way to have a practical life balance where I don’t have to sacrifice them so much again.

As a starting point, I’ve painted this sketchbook cover which began as blank white canvas much like my life’s blank slate.  The images in the stained glass each represent a bit of me.  The sketchbook will get me going on the upcoming journey.  I’m not sure exactly where life will take me, but I’m looking forward to the adventure!

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